Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Christmas to Christmas

I love side-by-side comparisons. Last Christmas I was almost 32 weeks pregnant. This Christmas I was chasing a ten-month-old. Next Christmas I'll be painting and cutting snowflakes with a toddler. So much changes in just a year's time!

This Christmas wasn't what I had hoped it would be. The idea of becoming a parent filled me with ideas of crafts and seeing the holiday through a child's eyes. I failed to remember that the glitter and excitement of Christmas are completely lost on a ten-month-old. The tree was interesting for only a few days. Scrunching wrapping paper brought her more holiday cheer than the anticipation of opening a gift. She doesn't have the attention span to watch Frosty the Snowman. Also, I was in a rotten mood in the morning. I regret it, and I'd take it back if I could. I was up with her in the wee hours of the morning, and sleep deprivation is torture in my book. I napped while she napped and was a much better human being afterward. If I'm being honest, I was really sad to not be with my family too. My sister and brother have never held Presley. (Editor's Note: I can barely type that without crying.) My relatives have never met her. Holidays alone are already hard, but throw in a baby, and I'm the bawling emoji face. But! ... Yes, there is a "but" ... It was still a sweet Christmas! I've been really busy with work, so I was very thankful to have time off to just relax at home with my peeps. ;)

We agreed that Christmas will be different next year, because Presley will have a better understanding of it all and will want to join in the fun.

Where ever you are, whatever you celebrate, who ever you spent time with -- I hope it was wonderful.


Whitney said...

Pres is adorable and so are you! I miss you so much sis!

Jenn said...

I love the photo! It is always so fun to see where we all have come in a years time. I can completely relate with the loneliness that the holidays can bring, since I haven't been able to celebrate with my family in over 4 years.

Darby Hawley said...

First of all, I too, love a good comparison picture and I'm so happy that this year you got to spend it with your baby girl. The holidays can be tough without family. I truly sympathize with you. My dad still has yet to meet Dutch. It's tough :-(

Brita Long said...

I can completely understand celebrating a bittersweet Christmas, albeit for different reasons. This was my husband's first Christmas in my hometown, and I loved sharing our traditions with him. It was also the first time since 2012 that my siblings plus our SOs have celebrated Christmas together. But it was also the first Christmas without our mom, which just made it really hard. Plus, not as sad, but still a little, is that by celebrating Christmas with my family, we didn't get to celebrate with my in-laws, including our first nephew. We skyped as a family a few days ago and did our Secret Santa exchange, but all I want to do is cuddle my nephew!