Tuesday, October 8, 2013

What Happened in September, Stays in September

Housewarming gift from Emily: One thing that is leaving September with me!

The human body is a resilient thing. When you are attentive, you realize how strong it is and how communicative it can be. The problem is that I haven't been very in tune with mine for months. The whirlwind that life has been since June left me frazzled, but you know how it is. You think to yourself, That's life. Everyone's life is stressful in one way or another. I just need more sleep... or hours in the day.

Those thoughts floated through m head countless times over the summer. Had I been attentive, I would have recognized my own need to slow down/reflect/vent to my husband/do yoga/sleep a lot more/[insert all things "calm" here]. But my mind was clouded with excitement about the new doors opening for us in a new city. 

However, change is change, and change is stressful -- even positive change.

I knew I was progressively losing steam, and my body was losing its patience with me. Emotions manifest physically, especially after being neglected, so it was only a matter of time before my body gave me the good ol' "Listen up when I'm talkin' to you!" To make a long story short, a series of curious lumps on my head (with subsequent hair loss) landed me an appointment with a dermatologist who performed a biopsy which, thankfully, came back clean. 

The root cause of all the hoop-la? Stress.

My eyes rolled back into my head as I laughed at his expert opinion. Of course, I thought. Not only had I been neglecting my stress of the last four months, but a trusty Google search had me convinced that I had a brain tumor or Lupus. Life, you have a twisted sense of humor, sometimes!

I've made a promise to myself to be attentive and keep myself in check physically, mentally, and emotionally. More sleep. Less TV. More sunshine. Less internet. More yoga. Less processed food. More fun. I'm leaving the painful lumps and hair loss in September. 

The only downside is that you won't see anymore "sexy side ponytail biopsy prep" photos on my Instagram.


Allie Tymoczko said...

Oh my gosh! I would have been thinking the same thing! I'm so, so happy to hear that everything okay and the only solution here is a big, fat does of self-care.

Now then, go get your downward dog on ;)

Lindsay Erin said...

Glad you are okay. Praying you can take it easy.

Michelle said...

SO glad you are ok!! I'm heard of people losing hair from stress before, but not the lumps! Crazy. Stress does insane things to us, does it not?! Last fall I was so stressed one week that the entire bottom half of my face went numb (apparently it's a common reaction to massive stress? who knew?!) and I broke out in hives everywhere. I learned to set some major boundaries for myself after that.

Whitney said...

So glad to hear that it was nothing more serious! I miss being able to have lunch with you. Let's have a Skype date soon!

Emily @ Emmy June said...

Hi sweets. Glad you are making some positive "zen" changes. I totally know what you mean as far as letting your mind go into planning/thinking/processing overdrive when life changes a lot with new jobs, new environment, and such.

Are you sure an Em, Dev, Linds sleepover doesn't fall into the "destress" category?!?!

Princess Burlap said...

Isn't it amazing how if you really listen, your body will tell you exactly what it needs?

I love your writing style. You have now been added to my Bloglovin' feed (a truly exclusive spot indeed).

-Dayna over at www.princessburlap.com
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